Yeah that pretty much sums it up. My health is going to level 11 today. Yippee!

So the last few days have been mind blowing for me. Things have happened that have solidified my faith in my worldview. I’m still trying to interpret and understand them. I feel as though they are life altering. I hope to be able to use my gifts to bring love to a world that is starving for it. More to come of course. I love you all. The universe loves you. You have nothing to fear. Love can conquer all.

I think Myst was filmed in Portland. I need a 2x CD-ROM to know for certain. Great now I’m having to unravel clues and mysteries just to eat dinner.

   I had been planning on getting this tattoo for some time. I designed it with my cousin who is a wonderful artist. She fleshed it out in watercolor. The middle of the tattoo is what is known as an Ashoka Chakra. Ashoka or Ashoka the Great was a ruler of India in about the 3rd century BCE. At first, he came to power through force and violent conquest. He was feared as a tyrant and warrior king.
   However, Buddhism was beginning to grow in India as Siddhartha had lived a few centuries past. The final battles in which he triumphed disturbed and troubled him, and he turned to Buddhism for solace. He realized that he had to change his ways to find peace. He decided to try and spread Buddhism as far and wide as he could. He developed institutions in India where scholars Buddhist and non-Buddhist could come together and learn and grow.
  He introduced the practice of not eating Cattle and sought to limit the over-fishing of certain wild fish. He ended hunting practices that had been practiced and was one of the first advocates of “animal rights.”
   The wheel in the middle of the tattoo represents the 12 Laws of Dependent Origination and the 12 Laws of Dependent Termination. Basically these are 12 tenets of Buddhism and the 12 in reverse.
   The animals around the wheel represent animal statues that I used in my room during my very difficult transition to symbolize different concepts. The Bear is a symbol of Strength. The Cat is a symbol of Affection. The Rooster is a symbol of Courage. The Frog is a symbol of Change. The Elephant is a symbol of Memory.
   These concepts and my belief in a modified version of Buddhism have brought me solace and peace and have allowed me to keep walking forward through many trials and challenges. If I had not had this spiritual belief, I do not think I would have made it through the darkness: Not seeing my children. Losing all of my money and my possessions. Going through transition and being viewed as some sort of freak.
   It has been the hardest year and a half of my life and also the most rewarding. Through suffering, I’ve found deep peace and understanding of what is. I now walk with the calm presence of the spirit around me. I am so happy and satisfied now. Life is a beautiful gift that we must cherish and love. Peace and happiness are possible for all people.

Anonymous asked: As someone who's taken progesterone for ages you're wasting your time and money.

why? no effect? I’ve taken progesterone quite a bit in the past. My doc now is trying to do a little lower impact now than what I was on before. Or at least it seems like it.

Started taking Prometrium (Progesterone) yesterday. Anyone have experience with this? I’ve never done oral Progest before.

Before enlightenment chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment chop wood, carry water.

Enlightenment is here. It grows when you open your mind and let the sunshine in. Then it grows big enough to seed and spread to other people who open their minds to let their gardens grow.

I got my hormones today from my naturopathic doc! She had to use lidocaine which had epinephrine in it. Nowww I’mmmm shakingggg from it :). She’s a total quack!

No seriously, she’s awesome. I’m lucky to have her. I got testosterone and estrogen subdermal pellets. Yay! Combined with not drinking I think I’m going to feel the best I’ve been in ages.

The Dalai Lama was just here the other day! How awesome is that! No wonder I’ve been so spiritually in tune. All is peace, and peace is all that is.

So I’m waiting on a friend that has yet to call but I don’t know if she’ll call so I’ll just wait and listen for that specific ring tone you know the one that we laughed at when we were last together as I sit here nervously pausing my life to write a little note in my journal.