Life to me appears to be set up something like this. We’re all here minding our own business, taking care of chores and such, and looking after the next generation. I think that if you do something bad or “against the rules” per se, then you inherit a bit of bad karma. Now I’m going to use the word karma even though it’s all messed up with a lot of baggage itself.

So, we collect good karma and bad karma based on our decisions and our values and such. There is a bit of a net karma where you balance out the good and the bad. We all know some people who are quite “good” people but have some badness to them. This is nothing new.

And here’s the rub. When you die, my wager is on the outcome that you get that karma all scored up and such, and you get a final tally. And this number or set of numbers determines where you’re going to end up in the next big adventure. So, if you work real hard and you do the “right” things and try your best to be “moral,” then you might just possibly get some sort of reward at the end. You level up. Good for you!

In the inverse if you are a nasty snot of a man who is hell bent on doing things that are considered “bad” or “wrong” you might come up with a negative number at the end of your experience here on good old planet Earth. Then, you might level down. Womp Womp…

So, this is just the basic explication of the structure of the thing, and I haven’t gotten to the rules or any of that yet, however, I’ll try a little later. But I think this is a start. Maybe in writing this, I got a little bit of good karma my way! Yippee!!

Abbie

selfdoubtandsyphilis:

dankestrnemes:

do animals think in english or in the sounds they make

this is what yahoo paid $1.1 billion for

I think it’s a valid question! We all know that Pandas speak Chinese and Koalas have Australian accents. That’s at least worth $10 Million or so.

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So, what’s happened in my life up to this point.

1. 29 years of crippling confusion and gender dysphoria, check!
2. Failed marriage, check!
3. Haven’t seen kids in a year because of court bias, check!
4. Declaring bankruptcy because of court costs and legal fees, check!
5. Had to transition from male to female yeah, that’s kinda hard, just a little, check!
6. Developed a nasty alcohol habit from all of this and had to go to rehab, check!

There’s gotta be something wrong here because I’m still smiling and laughing. Am I insane? No, I still have my job. I’m still awesome at Twitter, natch! What is wrong with me? Why am I not crying? I’m so confused.

7. Can’t figure out why I have all these problems but I’m still smiling, check!

Abbie

Yeah, so we grow up being bombarded with these messages of fear and intimidation that say “if you have a bad thought or if you touch yourself in the wrong way or if you put a piece of ham on a banana, you’ll go to HELL!!! for all eternity and have to listen to Hall and Oates on infinite repeat.” You know, that kind of thing.

Well….I would have to say that’s not exactly the truth. Why is that Abbie? You might ask yourself. Well, because I’ve had experiences where I’ve been one with God, and all of humanity was there, and it was made perfectly clear that there is nothing to worry about, and God is just a son of a bitch with a wicked sense of humor. Do you really think that God could create this incredibly insane joke of a reality that you see when you turn on TV without having a sense of humor?

There is no hell. You have nothing to fear. When you die, you get to see a nice little recap of your life, and things just reset. That’s it! That’s everything. You don’t go to get judged, by some douche in a robe that has nothing better to do than analyze every time you ate a piece of ham concurrently with a banana to see if you followed the proper ham consumption procedure. Why the fuck would an almighty, all powerful being, who can make reality disappear with a snap of his fingers care so fucking much about some random thought you had in the 3rd grade?

Anyway, “God is not a douche” is pretty much my religion, and you know what? God is currently laughing at you while wearing some gold rimmed blue blocker sun glasses, a leopard print three piece suit, Crocodile shoes, and some Beats audio headphones around his neck. God is so not a douche, that he gets to dress up like a douche while he’s laughing at the fact that you think he’s a douche! He’s that much not a douche. Anti-douche level 11.

God loves you. He doesn’t care about what sins you think you’ve committed in your life, because life is just a simulation. It’s for fun! We get to start as babies with no memory and go through this simulation and all its glory and bask in the sun in Kauai, Hawaii for fun.

So when you are going to your desk at your mind-numbing job this Monday with your ass-hat real-douche of a boss who actually wears crocodile shoes leering at you over your cubicle, remember this. God is laughing his ass off at your boss, while spinning some awesome dub-step beats over his turntables in the outfit I mentioned earlier, because it’s, well, because it’s so damn funny that he can’t help himself.

So, laugh at your boss. It’s all a cosmic joke. You know the little Buddha statues where the fat man is laughing uncontrollably? Buddha knows the same shit that I’m telling you right now. That’s why he’s laughing his ass off. Because, of people like your boss. I’m laughing too. I’m not listening to dub-step though, because that is pretty much the only thing that will send you to hell. KIDDING! Although we’d love it if it were true, it’s not.

Happy Monday!!

:)

Abbie

Yeah that pretty much sums it up. My health is going to level 11 today. Yippee!

So the last few days have been mind blowing for me. Things have happened that have solidified my faith in my worldview. I’m still trying to interpret and understand them. I feel as though they are life altering. I hope to be able to use my gifts to bring love to a world that is starving for it. More to come of course. I love you all. The universe loves you. You have nothing to fear. Love can conquer all.

I think Myst was filmed in Portland. I need a 2x CD-ROM to know for certain. Great now I’m having to unravel clues and mysteries just to eat dinner.

   I had been planning on getting this tattoo for some time. I designed it with my cousin who is a wonderful artist. She fleshed it out in watercolor. The middle of the tattoo is what is known as an Ashoka Chakra. Ashoka or Ashoka the Great was a ruler of India in about the 3rd century BCE. At first, he came to power through force and violent conquest. He was feared as a tyrant and warrior king.
   However, Buddhism was beginning to grow in India as Siddhartha had lived a few centuries past. The final battles in which he triumphed disturbed and troubled him, and he turned to Buddhism for solace. He realized that he had to change his ways to find peace. He decided to try and spread Buddhism as far and wide as he could. He developed institutions in India where scholars Buddhist and non-Buddhist could come together and learn and grow.
  He introduced the practice of not eating Cattle and sought to limit the over-fishing of certain wild fish. He ended hunting practices that had been practiced and was one of the first advocates of “animal rights.”
   The wheel in the middle of the tattoo represents the 12 Laws of Dependent Origination and the 12 Laws of Dependent Termination. Basically these are 12 tenets of Buddhism and the 12 in reverse.
   The animals around the wheel represent animal statues that I used in my room during my very difficult transition to symbolize different concepts. The Bear is a symbol of Strength. The Cat is a symbol of Affection. The Rooster is a symbol of Courage. The Frog is a symbol of Change. The Elephant is a symbol of Memory.
   These concepts and my belief in a modified version of Buddhism have brought me solace and peace and have allowed me to keep walking forward through many trials and challenges. If I had not had this spiritual belief, I do not think I would have made it through the darkness: Not seeing my children. Losing all of my money and my possessions. Going through transition and being viewed as some sort of freak.
   It has been the hardest year and a half of my life and also the most rewarding. Through suffering, I’ve found deep peace and understanding of what is. I now walk with the calm presence of the spirit around me. I am so happy and satisfied now. Life is a beautiful gift that we must cherish and love. Peace and happiness are possible for all people.

Anonymous asked: As someone who's taken progesterone for ages you're wasting your time and money.

why? no effect? I’ve taken progesterone quite a bit in the past. My doc now is trying to do a little lower impact now than what I was on before. Or at least it seems like it.